The Damned World

It had been fun for the past couple of days. Christmas and the new year were filled with joyous parties, concerts, countdown, etc. Hardly anything bad until now...

I was on my way home and it was rather late. It was 11pm, on the 6th of Jan, when I reached home and not long after I settled down, my parent announced the news that my paternal grandmother had passed away just in the late afternoon.

We were told that she had a fall and landed on her forehead in the kitchen. Weaken and debilitated, the poor old feeble woman attempted to crawl to the door to ask for help. With all her exertion, she only made it to the middle of hall and lost her breath forever.

At first the news didn't affect us immensely as we were mildly attached to her. But on wednesday, when we attended the wake, sending our regards at the altar and looking at her grey-scale portrait, it was hard to ignore the memories and feelings resurfacing from our hearts. We then took a glance of her through the glass of her coffin. That really arises our affections we have for her. It was way more cruel for the heart than a 42km marathon.

The funeral also drew almost all my relatives together. usually they would find excuses to avoid attending any form of gatherings and encapsulate themselves in their own private family matters. seldom you see them gather like that to have peanuts and packet drinks and all of them were in white tops(attire for the Chinese wake). The last time we have similiar turnout was when my grandfather passed away 4 years ago. Unfortunately isn't it.

I once saw a movie about an old woman in her 80s, who lived in loneliness after her husband had passed away. After turning her grandson over to a new leaf, she passed away. The drama then portrayed the after life scenario of her husband's soul appearing in his 30s to fetch the old women, who also reemerged in her 30s, to the other side. When they both first met each other and fell in love, they were in their 30s.

I wondered if that is really happening to my grandmother after she left us. If it is, i would be happy for the both of them.

She was cremated on Saturday at 5pm, 10th January 2008 .